Tragedies and Sadness

Today a gunman went into a school and killed 20 school children. It is tragic, it is sad, their classmates had to  witness things children should never have to witness. Newtown, CT will never be the same, the staff at that school will never be the same neither will the parents of the children who are gone and the children who survived.

BUT WHAT IF?? 7 children a day were gunned down each day or make that 46 and only 7 of them died. IT WOULD BE HORRIBLE RIGHT?? 46 children are diagnosed on any given school day with a form of childhood cancer, 7 of these children will die. The difference, it could be prevented with more awareness, more research and maybe even cures!! The difference is we could help control this by urging law makers to give more money to research. The difference is major corporations could sport gold ribbons on their products YEAR ROUND or even for ONE MONTH.

Why don't they? I have heard many reasons and the truth being most of the reasoning Childhood cancer is depressing. It is! It SUCKS!! My kid has gotten chemo for 2 years running through her growing body, hoping in the future she doesnt end up with cancer from her chemo, or heart problems, or hope that her bones regenerate since it has literally been killed off by some of the meds she was on. It is pretty freakin depressing!!

I keep hearing the news mentioning PTSD, guess what?!! Our kids, not just the ones diagnosed but their siblings as well as us parents, we are often diagnosed with PTSD!! Cancer changes your family, forever and always. Life will never be the same. You will never feel "safe" again. When I hear about a child who has died from a setback, relapse, chemo, infection, whatever it may be... my mind goes to what if.  I wonder often when my child is in school if she is safe. Sadly the life of a cancer mom is extremely close to parents who have gone through this. One day we woke up and expected our kid to go to school and do what kids do and instead they were given the diagnosis of cancer. Cancer is a killer that takes 7 of our friends a day, and adds 46 more moms to our cancer mama club a day. It shouldn't  happen but it does everyday. What will it take for us to get peoples attention??

This all being said my heart hurts for the families effected today, I just felt the need to put my feelings down.